i'm leaving a beautiful place such as..

ktn... and never able to forget the beautiful people and kids i met during my 1 year journey in ktn... i'll miss and love them all... always. :) Praise God for introducing such beautiful church as GCC into my life.. my life was changed.. indeed. Thank God.

2 more days.. i'll be leaving Ktn back to KL. What am I going to face back in KL? So many questions, but they never bothered me. Coz my mind is now smothered with, "seize all moments you still have in Ktn!!!!" I know for sure that im gonna miss ktn and my church folks & kids, my landlady, my kiko, o-chui... friends... so much so im determined to spend everyday with a few of them... this and that...

Tonight i gonna spend with my landlady, she buying me dinner... then tomorrow is another day.. gonna have the final moon-watching episode in TC.. oh boy... when will be the next time i moon-watch with such beautiful brothers n sisters again?

God... i need your grace... flowing incesssantly... though your grace have always been sufficient for me.. but i hunger for more of you Lord.... give me strength and faith to face each new day as i prepare my heart to leave ktn n my beautiful bro n sis... keep me close to your heart, always Lord... love...

Dr Fatimah passed away

Another death.. my dear Large Animal Medicine lecturer passed away on saturday. She fell down in the bathroom and...

Lord bless her soul..

My cousin's death

Just 2 weeks ago, a friend of mine died suddenly in an accident. Last saturday, my cousin, Nicholas, 19 died suddenly due to stomach bleeding. It was too sudden. These sequence of events couldn't help but lead me to the fact that, anyone will die, anytime, anywhere. You won't know. I won't know. Young or old, they will die. Sick or healthy, they still die. One day you and i will die. When? No one knows.

If a loved one of yours die tomorrow, what is the most grappling thing in your heart? I would want to know, after death where is he going? is he prepared to go where he is going? i won't care whatever thing on earth that he's left unsettled, but i want to make sure that the road ahead of him is a good one. Will you want him to be in heaven or hell?

I have spoken to a few people, everyone cling to the principle, "just enjoy your life on earth." But dear friends, are you aware that there is life after death? Do you know that heaven and hell do exist? ( don't ask me where it is, coz i'm still alive ok. if you really want to know, ask the one true living God)

There is only one way to be sure of where he'll go after death - have he received Jesus in his life yet?

Jesus has said, " I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6.

The bible says, "Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved." ~Romans 10:6.

While we are still alive, we have the chance to repent and receive Jesus, do it. Tell your loved ones to do so also. For we won't know when our time will come. So that when the day comes, you're assured & comforted that one day you'll see him again in heaven, that's for sure. Amen.

It's through.. . finally.

Praise God! My boss is finally back! It was such a relief. I truly thank God for by his grace I survived the past 6 weeks.

It is indeed true, that when you’re in your comfort zone, very often you lax and forget about God and all his blessings unto you. It is in times of trouble and distress that you seek God most, and you will thus know Him better and thus build an even stronger relationship with Him. When His grace touches you, miracles happen, all the impossibles become possible, the “unthinkables” becomes reality.

The past 6 weeks were truly difficult to me, for I had to do surgeries which I have never done before, and all difficult cases I had to diagnose and manage it on my own.. There were times when I reached home late at night, past mid night, just to settle the cases. Even after reaching home, I would be worrying about the animals and having nightmares about them. There was literally no peace at all.

So many times I broke down and thought of just quit working immediately and run away from Ktn. But that was a wrong spirit. I must thank God, for every time I was so weak that I cried like a child & started questioning and pleading God this and that, I started hearing songs in my ears. It was almost like God was comforting me with words like, “Be still and know that I am God”, “Let the peace of God reign”, “Let the weak say I am strong… it’s what the Lord has done in me”, “God will make a way… hold me closely to his side”.

I was comforted instantaneously, trusting that God is in control of everything, and if he brings me to it, He will surely bring me through it. I cast all my worries to Him. And now I live to tell you that He had indeed brought me through it! Glory to God, hallelujah!

Dear Father in heaven, I thank you that you are my Father. You’re so merciful, full of love and grace… how can I ever thank and love you enough? Take me deeper in love with you, that I may know you even more. Oh, and how I long to hear your voice Lord, in Jesus’ name, Amen.

A friend's death

A friend of mine died 2 days ago, in a car accident in New Zealand, where she and 3 of her friends plunged into a lake. It was winter. When I heard of the news I was shocked. She’s only 20. She had just got her scholarship to study in NZ months ago. And now…

The wise men say, it is not how long you lived that matters, but how meaningful your life was. Isn’t it true? I thank God for giving us Veronica, although it was only for a short period of time, she has been a source of inspiration, joy, & hope to many of us. We love her. As we soothe our hearts with tears, we know that Jesus is weeping with us. He is with us, Emmanuel.

But we also trust that God has His divine purpose in everything, though we may not understand, though we may not rationalize it. For God has said, “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future.”

So now I ask that Father, speak to us. Open our ears so we may hear you. Let us hear you Lord. I thank you for Veronica has believed in Jesus, and she is saved. Thank you for bringing Veronica home with you in heaven. Thank you God, for you are our stronghold, our rock, our comfort, our shelter. Strengthen us, give us courage, increase our faith Lord, so we may face the days to come faithfully, walking with Jesus.
In Jesus’ name I pray, AMEN.

“If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.”

God is good, always. AMEN!

testing me?

my bos is away overseas for a month - and i'm absolutely busy here. Busy is ok, working more hours without appreciation... all the due stresses and pressure without anyone understanding... I wished to give up several times... but i know that that's not the way. but there is still one more month to go.. how do i live on/go on?

Dear father in heaven, in times when i am weak, i thank you for being there with me. In times when i crumble into pieces, thank you for fixing them into one piece again and enable me to walk on again the next day. God i ask this of you, come what may be, but let it be as you will dear Lord, and i that you always be with me, encourage me, give me strength, strengthen my faith as i am feeble, weak... and help me Lord. Carry me when i fell flat on the ground and didn't want to get up. Forgive me for my weakness Lord. In times when I walk on difficult paths of life, Lord I ask that you grant me wisdom and your divine understanding, so that I will make the right decision which pleases you Lord. God i thank you, thank you for your ever abundant love and mercy. Bless you lord and love you...

In Jesus' name i pray, amen.

Believe it or not?

Last Saturday I attended a Healing Rally session, in Subang, led by Pastor William Lau, the founder of Elijah Challenge. Healing Rally simply means a group of people coming together to be healed by God, the true and living God; the one God whom have created the heaven and earth, and sent His son Jesus to die for our sins.

I have read and watched videos of such healing rallies held overseas, where miracles happened – the lame walks, the blind sees, and the deaf hears! Cancer patients were healed. I was really excited that Saturday.

That night, more than a thousand people turned up, both Christians and non-Christians, sick and healthy, men and women, young and old. After a little preaching, we prayed to God our Father in heaven to manifest His miracles and heal the sick/needy people present amongst us that night, in Jesus’ name.

“This is the moment,” I thought nervously. So we started rebuking diseases and illness in Jesus’ name. Then Pastor William asked the thousand audiences, “Who are healed?” Silence. Gradually, one hand after another started protruding from the sea of people. Pastor William then asked them to stand up and move on to the stage to testify their healing.

I couldn’t believe my eyes and ears! More than 150+ received healing that night! A few people who were once deaf could hear clearly, some started hearing clearly without hearing aids, some with lumps (suspected cancer) where the lumps just disappear or soften that night, some with numb hand can actually move their hands, those with years of back pain, knee pain, arthritis were healed, and a boy whom initially walks with a cane was actually walking around without a cane, free! People with stress/emotional depression felt something was lifted away from them and were relieved that night.

I stood there in awe. God was indeed present amongst us that night.

Then came the altar call – who wants to accept Jesus Christ as their personal Saviour? Hands went up, and people started stepping out. I honestly (& embarrassingly) never expected so much healing and people accepting Christ that night. Tears started filling up my eyes.

Dear heavenly Father, forgive my doubtful heart and my small faith in you, increase my faith, Lord. Thank you for confirming your words. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

“And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will …….they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.” ~Mark 16:17.

Surgery miracle

Being a final year vet student, besides completing and presenting project, assignments, rounds & conferences, I had to practice my surgical skills on dogs weekly, which was done in a team-manner. There were 4 people in my team. Each week, everyone rotates to be the “Surgeon”. “Surgeon” in this context means the head of the team for that particular surgery, and he must know everything about the surgery. If he doesn’t, he’ll “kena hantam kuat-kuat” from someone big in the surgery theatre. And it does hurt, sometimes deeply, if you “kena hantam” from those “someone big”.

So it happened that one particular week, I had to present clinical rounds on Tuesday, on Monday & Wednesday I had to complete my project to pass up asap, Friday was my clinical conference and on Thursday, I was scheduled to be the “Surgeon”. It was a week filled with stress & tension. Let alone the project, presenting clinical rounds & conferences required me to do tones of homework & researches so that when the audience throw questions at me, I’ll be able to give them an appropriate answer. Time was just not enough, no matter how I squeezed my sleeping hours. Mon, Tue, Wed passed so quickly & I found myself frozen on Wed night. Panicked.

“Tomorrow I’ll be the surgeon. I’ll have to spend tonight, and tomorrow’s morning to read about the surgery, and spend the rest of tomorrow doing surgery. And my conference presentation was not even ready!” The conference was akin to a test for us. On the brink of tears, I thought of Jesus. I thought of how the church members had boasted of miracles and glorified Jesus’ name. But rationally, there was no way of canceling the surgery class, and no way to postpone my conference presentation, coz they involved too many people. And it was such last-minute.

Silently I thought, “Even if I prayed to Jesus,” (I was not yet a believer) “there is no way how he can help me. I just couldn’t see a way out.” Tears started dripping down my cheeks. “But it would be good if only my surgery class is cancelled tomorrow.” I sighed and shook my head, “Silly thought. It’s impossible.” I told Davies abt my thought and we knew that it was just impossible.

Early next morning, we prepared the books & everything necessary for surgery class. As usual, the lecturer talked a little about the imminent surgery. I froze. I looked around me. All tables, towels, equipments & instruments have been sterilized & well-laid, awaiting for the surgery to start. I sighed. Tension. As the lecturer left, suddenly our “Head of Nurse” came into the class. “Later 2pm you are supposed to come in and do surgery.” She smiled. “But there is no dog for surgery today.” She paused. “So surgery is cancelled.”

I jumped on my feet and almost screamed out loud excitedly. I told my friends (who were all bewildered with the news) abt my thoughts yesterday. But who would believe me? Instilled in each of us was the thought that surgery class will never, ever be cancelled, even if the lecturer does not turn up. So who would be stupid enough to ever think of the thought? Then Davies came to me excitedly, “Wei, your prayer really come true!” I smiled. Glad. Happy. “I did not pray. I just thought,” I thought smilingly. “I just thought of Jesus.”

Then a voice said to me, “Everything is possible in Jesus.” Later on, I found a few similar verses in the Holy Bible…

‘Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” ~Matthew 19:26

‘Jesus replied, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.” ~Luke 18:27.

‘Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.” ~Mark 10:27

My project miracle

Within the next few weeks, miracles happened after miracles... it was the time around the DVM4 semester break and early DVM5 semester, where we were loaded with project, clinical conferences and clinical rounds, presentations.. small animal rounds.. it was just fully loaded (our timetable). Let me just share a few miracles which i could still remember...

I was doing a project on how certain microorganism (copepods) can kill Aedes larvae. So one part of my project was to breed Aedes larvae. We were given 5 weeks to finish the entire project, which means i had only 2 weeks to breed my larvae (with 4 stages of life, with each stage taking about 3-5 days before moving on to the next stage).

So I started filling up jars and aquariums with waters with hope of Aedes mosquitoes laying eggs there. However, towards the end of the 2 weeks, I still did not have enough Aedes larvae. I started to panic, and I remembered during my few visits to my dad's church, they kept emphasizing, "When you're in fear/trouble, just call out Jesus to help you."

I was a Buddhist/Taoist then, but my circumstances forced me to source out all help available. Friends and lecturers couldn't help me to breed enough larvae. And one night, at the end of my wits, I decided to try praying to Jesus, asking for His help. Early next morning, I rushed to my lab and checked out my aquariums. Praise God! My prayer was answered. There were plenty of Aedes larvae of all stages in all my aquariums, enough to proceed with my project.

I was really amazed. I tried reasoning first. If the mosquitoes started laying eggs yesterday, i would have only stage 1 larvae. Where did stage 2, 3, and 4 larvae came from? It would have taken them at least 10 days to grow in my aquarium, and it was impossible that i have missed them for the past 10 days (because I was desperately looking for larvae everywhere possible for hours, even a stage 1 larva would not escape from my eagle eyes).

I started thinking, was it really Jesus?

My first road accident

Talking about water baptism, it is one way of showing to the world that you have decided to follow Christ as the lord of your life, and thus follow His commandments. Superficially, it’s just soaking into water. But there is in fact, a lot of meaning behind it.

Prior to baptism, I was required to give a testimony in front of the church congregation – telling them, what brought you to Christ. Wow, I really had a big headache thinking of what to say. The problem was not that I do not have anything to say. The problem was, I had too much to say and I was given only a few minutes.

So I finally decided to talk about my miraculous accident, back in nov 2004. I was in DVM4 then. That Friday, during lunch break, I decided to go back to my hostel (K12, which was about 3-5km away). The fastest way would be to ride pillion on my friend’s motorcycle. So I borrowed a helmet from FSuen, and in my hurry, accidentally took WChat’s (1st miracle), which was a very heavy, full-head, high quality one. Fsuen’s was the olden day’s type – those that covers only half your cranium with no visor.

As I reached K12, I kept complaining about the helmet, for it was really heavy on my little head. I didn’t realize that I have taken the wrong helmet. My friend and I lingered and relaxed around in hostel, until 1 minute before class starts. As expected, we hurriedly hopped onto the bike. She rides, me pillion. We were seriously (& scarily) speeding on the right lane towards faculty, when suddenly a motorcycle emerged from behind and crashed us. Both bike riders lost control, and my bike suddenly gained a powerful momentum; my friend and I were overthrown as the bike skewed.

There was no time for me to shout/ scream. One moment I was flying in the air head-on (like superman). The next moment I was bumping (like a ball) onto my friend (who has already landed, but I was still bumping and flying over her). After a few bumps on the ground I finally landed. I laid there, still. Eyes closed. My whole body was trembling, shaking. As I opened my eyes, I was horrified to find a big wall only a few cm away from me! (2nd miracle) A difference by the few cm could have had my head crushed against the wall. I was flung about 10m away from the crash site.

I sat up, looked around me and felt the ground. Instead of landing into the middle of the road, I was actually swung to the roadside, “flied” over the road, and bumped onto grasslands! (3rd miracle) It so happened that I was also wearing a jacket and jeans, which were partly torn during the accident, but apart from a few bruises, I was unharmed! (4th miracle) As I removed my helmet which protected my head in the accident, I suddenly recalled that this was the helmet which I had been complaining about. My entire cranium was fine, there was not even a scratch on my face (I bumped and landed face-down).

Suddenly it became clear to me that a divine power was protecting me… setting so many miracles before me only to save me from an accident which I had never anticipated… (To be continued)

water baptism

a short update - i was water-baptized on easter day. ;)

God bless...

Passover

This is the passover week. I’ve never heard of “Passover” week before this. So don't bother asking me whether i know what it's about. But now, I know.

It started from the time of Moses, when God had wanted to save the Israelites, who were then slaves under Egypt’s reign. That particular day (called Passover Day), the Israelites were commanded to eat lambs as to celebrate a festival to the Lord. The blood from the lamb should be put onto the sides and tops of the doorframes of the houses where they eat the lambs. That same night, God will strike (punish) Egypt. All firstborns, both men and animals shall die. But He will “pass over” the houses with the lamb blood on the doorframes, and leave the men and animals within unharmed. That night, the first child of the Pharaoh died.

Ever since then, the Jews celebrate this festival every year, sacrificing lambs on that day. Years later, Jesus the Messiah came down to Earth from Heaven, fulfilling the prophecies in the Scripture. On the journey to His crucifixion, He was mocked, tortured, tormented, whipped, spat on, pierced on the head, and finally crucified on the cross. How He had suffered! Jesus died on the day of Passover.

He was actually the Passover lamb, who had been sacrificed to free and purify our sins by His blood to bring us to God. Jesus died, was buried and resurrected on the third day.

Dear Jesus, how I thank you this day for being willing to endure the agony and suffering for my sins. Thank you for making me a child of God. In your name, Amen.

wat's the priority in your life?

I remember going back to hometown visiting my relatives n frens during chinese new year abt a month ago, i met one and greeted her as usual, "Happy New Year."

Her reply was reali one of a rare kind. Guess. 95% of the ppl i greeted would have replied saying, "Happy New Year" or "Gong Xi Fa Cai" or all those 4-letter chinese words with profound meanings... so have you managed to make a guess? Her reply was...

"No! You must wish me, stock market go up up up!" I was shocked. coz the norm was, i greet them, then they greet back the same thing, and we move on to greet other ppl. And this was out of the norm. Ei?

So i replied.."No... happiness comes first, money later..."
And she said, "No no no, must always come first."

Folks, if you could recall, days before the CNY were exactly the few days when our stock market was at their peak, expectedly, it was the moment where you see ppl rushing into KLSE/ stock market. Days after the CNY, the market plummeted, badly, reali badly. When i heard the news, the first person that came into my mind was that fren of mine.

If you put money as the first priority in your life, i assure you, you have put your life pursuing the wrong thing. No doubt, we need money in life. It's important. But that does not mean it should be the MAIN PRIORITY in your life.

There are so many things that we, imperfect humans need in life.. and so many people do not seem to be ever satisfied with what they have or what they have achieved. I remember an ad in the tv started with the model askin this sentence, "Have you ever wake up in the morning saying your want less in life?"And that explains human nature just right - we are always looking for more... MORE... and another brand's slogan, "I want more!" more MORE...

2 days ago someone asked me,"Why don't you gamble?" Another person replied on my behalf,"No need to gamble, as long as you get married to a rich guy, stay at home jaga anak, play with pets enough liao." Is that true?

To me, (and I hope the same goes to you too) the main priority in life should always be God. Always seek him, in every circumstance. Money is important. So are health, love, boyfriends, girlfriends, parents, family, children, education, career, cars, houses, food... No doubt, they are very very important. But the focus of our lives should always be directed to God. What is the use of good wealth and health and friends when you live in fear/war? We need peace and joy ultimately. And that alone comes from God's grace.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." ~Psalm 23:4.

"For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock." ~Psalm 27:5.

Surely there wil be a day when our health will fall, people walk out on us, career fail, and all things just turn out wrong. But you know what? There's one that will never walk out on you, he's Emmanuel, Jesus Christ, our Saviour.

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you from captivity." ~Jeremiah 29:11.

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." ~Hebrews 13:5

When Jesus dwells within you, peace and joy will come to you automatically. God bless.

My big sis wedding

it had been such a long time since i last posted my blog, tat so many things have happened, yet i wanted to post just one topic... I have sat in the bathroom mentally planning every single words for my blog, and the moment i steppet out - dong.. all of it just vanished. so things are reali turning n churnin in my head now... hmm...

anyway, big things come first. My big sis is wedded.
My feelings? It's like something tat just happens in your life.. first it suprises you, then wonders you, makes you think, excites you, thrills you and hey, its over! Then you wake up in the morning as usual, peep at the empty bed, you rub your eyes once, twice, then shake your head a little bit here n thr.. and the realization finally sets in. Big sis is wedded. Honestly n regretfully, i didn't help much, excuse? i was in ktn.. bad excuse i know but.. distance does play a role k..

So my current feeling? Not much, but relying to God 100%. I pray tat God will bless her, abundantly, always, bless her new family and always be with them, in everything, under everycircumstances, whether in wealth or poverty, whether in comfort or adversity, emmanuel.. In Jesus' name I trust, Amen.

And I really fell in love with this song - we sang it during her wedding ceremony. The lyric goes..

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone...

they're all grown-ups now!

i went back hometown yesterday visited my aunties and uncles and also my cousins, got some ang pows and chatted... but the part that really got me crazy was...

in believing my eyes - my little little cutie cousin brothers n sisters are now grown-ups! even taller than mE!!! i still remembered how I carried them, hugged them as a baby, hushed and played silly games with them.. and now they're... taller than me! std 6.. 13... 15 years olD! i can't belive this?!

and i stil think tat i'm 17?! hallo? the thing is that the memories i had when I was in my teen years was stamped so deeply in me, tat my memories have always been clinging to those years'.

haih... after seeing and talked them i still couldn't believe it, so i pinched their cheeks.. and it was real.

it was real.

How to spend your energy?

Today is another day with an irritating client. This time a “guai lou”. Great.

To start things off, she looked down on me. I don’t mind if she can’t carry a smile on her face or she can’t speak kind English. What tugged my nerve was, she thought I didn’t understand English! Great. She thought she speaks good Malay anyway, so she automatically switched her language mode to Bahasa Melayu baku – lambat. It was so slow, it irritated me the 2nd time. I told her, “You can speak to me in English, I understand English. I just couldn’t catch your accent.”

“Very well,” (she thought). So she proceeded with her wonderful English, and I couldn’t pick up certain words. Instead of kindly repeat the word for me, she went slapping her forehead – implicating to me, “Why do you say you understand English when you don’t?!” And stamped her feet a little, and I could read from her body language, “Waste my time speaking to you in a language which you don’t understand.” Automatically she switched back to her Bahasa-Melayu-baku-yang-lambat. Fine. And I was, "Great, where did you learn that manners from?"

She’s irritated. So was I. The difference was, she’s “legally” allowed to show it, but I can’t. What to do? I just flashed my charming stunning smile at her. Kekeke… Let’s play princess charming.

Getting irrited with such ppl does spoil the day, but not entirely. Later a puppy was rushed in – suffocated in a plastic bag! Oh my… we tried resuscitating the poor pup, but to no avail. Guess it was too long suffocated before found. Sad.

Now when I think back of my today, hmm.. might as well spend my energy doing something beneficial, or feeling sorry for the pup, rather than thinking back of the irritants.

So folks, something to learn today. To cat/dog/baby owners, NEVER never NEVER feed your loved ones from a plastic bag. When you leave them with it, they may just accidentally wrap their head inside the plastic, get panic, struggle, and get suffocated in it. How unfortunate. Pour the things out into a proper bowl, and THROW AWAY the plastic bag to some place where they have no access.

So let’s BEWARE… and TAKE PRECAUTIONS. Better safe than sorry.

Frust!

This type of owneR! They're really irritating, frustratin! haar!!!!

1st. They ask every single thing you do. For example, i charge hospitalization rate for RM xx. ok, so they ask all sorts of questions - what do you do during hospitalization of the cat? how many times you take body temperature? What type of medication doyou give? what for? How often? What type of injection do you give? How many ml of fluid do you give my cat every hour? What's in the fluid? what time will the fluid finish?

"HELLO!!!!!!" ahem.. that's my heart screaming at my cool brain.

then they'll add, "if hospitalize my cat here guarantee heal one. If not heal how?" I told them no guarantee.. "then why hospitalize my cat?"

"HELLO!!!!!" Can u pls speak some common sense? if hospitalization guarantees healing, NO HUMAN will ever die in a hospital!

then they added, "ok, this drug.. how much you charge? this injection, why necessary? how much you charge? if inject twice then how much?" I gave them an approximate round figure which includes everything, but he wanted to break down into every single item.

"HELLO!!!!" Do you know that if i break down everything for you you're gonna pay thru your nose??? A round up figure is a discounted price! I wished I could glare at them right at the eyes.

then they added, "you know, if i go to this vet, he'll just do ABC, no ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUV bla bla bla.." Coolly i tried my best to reply, "I don't know what tat vet gave, did he got better?" "Yah! within days!" "good, did the cat had the same symptoms as he had now?" "No..."

"SOOOOOOO????!!!!" anyway, if tat vet's so good, why come here?

ARRRGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! geram, geram , geram geram!!!!!!!!!

and now ended up with this high level of stress within me.. what if the cat didn't get better? What will they come up with? to make things worse, it's not easy to give the cat medication. Haih.... stress...

God.. grant me peace & wisdom please... Amen.

I am Bobo

Hi, my name is Bobo. I may look like any "wong-choy" or "ah-wong" on the street, but you know wat? Altho i'm a mongrel physically, i'm a princess in my owner's heart. She loves me, and proved to the world so.

Shortly after I was born 4 years ago, I was diagnosed with jaundice and I got all the yellow discolouration of my teeth, eyes and so forth. My lovely owner had brought me to the vet A, and they treated me ok, and apparently i felt better. A year later, I lost appetite and became indifferent with my surrounding. Again, my owner had brought me to vet A, and this time he says tat i got infection in my uterus, pyometra he says. And he removed my uterus.

When i'm 3+ years old, suddenly I lost appetite again. And this time I felt really bad. Poor darling owner brought me to vet A, and he dripped me day once, night once. He says my kidneys are failing. The quick drip suffocated me, but after a day or two i felt better, but the same signs reappear soon. After a few tries, vet A gave up and told my sweet owner tat i've to sleep forever!

I remembered the tears in my owners eyes, I did not cry for I did not have the energy to do so. My owner didn't give up. She brought me to another vet, vet B. The vets here were very kind to me, and I was quite nasty for removing the catheter and drips that they gave me. Somehow after a week or so staying in hospital B, I really got better! I started eating.. and soon I can go home, on a special kidney diet. It's very costly, but my owner loved me too much to consider tat. I lived happily with the loving care of the vet B and my owner ever since.

But that was 6 months ago. 2 weeks ago I started to get really tired. My mouth really get stinko. It stinks! I wish i've some mint to wash away tat smell, but i just comes back. My stomach starts to sore. I lost appetite, and wish to just lay sleeping all the time. My owner got worried, and got me to vet B again. Nomatter how intensive and expensive they got with me, I couldn't respond. Heavy heartedly, my owner began to consider laying me down to sleep forever to ease my pain. I began vomiting every few hours. Diarrhea. I was getting more and more fatigue.

Yesterday morning I overheard my owner speaking to vet B - to put me to rest tomorrow. And today will be the last day they drip me. I was sad, heart-broken. I had not wanted to leave my owner and vet B. But I wished to stop my pain also. I just couldn't stand the endless sore in my stomach and body. And I had started vomiting blood. At the end of the day, after dripping, I did feel better but the sore in my stomach remains.

This morning will be the day. I knew it. I saw my owner's husband mistreating my owner, and I ran after him barked at him real harsh. My owner was startled. "Where did I get the energy from?" I wished I could tell her, "It's my honour to finish the last bit of my energy to protect you." Soon, I felt really tired... sleepy. I heard my owner calling me, "Bobo! Bobo!" And she sobbed real loud. But I couldn't open my eyes. I couldn't move a limb. I knew that i was leaving, but I thank God for giving me such a lovely owner and caring vet B during my lifetime. I had loved living the past 6 months of my life. Then I slept. I never woke up since.

haunted

Few weeks ago, my pastor gave a sermon during our church service. I kept thinking about his words, “God only gives you sweet dreams. If you had a nightmare, it must not be from God. Hahaha..” I couldn’t understand. Was that just a joke? Or a real statement? I didn’t confront him to find out the truth tho’.

That night, I thought of these words again & again before I closed my eyes and ventured into the dreamworld. That very night, I had a nightmare. In my dream, I saw a friend, someone whom I’ve not kept in touch for some time. I dreamt that she had long been in deep trouble. When I get to know about it, it was too late. Then I woke up. Troubled. “How is she doing?” I wondered. And I remembered my pastor’s words again. “God only gives you sweet dreams. If you had a nightmare, it must not be from God. Hahaha...” “Why must he “Hahaha” at the end of his sentence?” I thought grouchily.

So the next day I decided to call her– just to check her out. She was a depressed person when I called her (I was not surprised for she had always been so, she’s a pessimist). We chatted about life troubles, work, people, money, family and etc. Then she started to talk about something which she’s never told anyone – she’s being haunted. She had not told anyone about this, for she was sure that nobody will believe her. I believed her.

Quickly I told her the reason why I called her up – my nightmare. But I didn’t tell her the details, for I know for sure that it will only bring her down. So I comforted her, and told her to pray to God for help. She replied, “Don’t ask me to pray! I’ve prayed so many times and I’m tired. I give up. It’s useless!”

“Which God did you pray to?” I asked.
“I’ve tried many gods, I went to the temples and prayed and just last week, I went for channeling (rasuk tuhan). I tried his remedy and it’s totally useless!”
“No wonder why it's useless. The God I’m talking about is the one and only God on heaven and earth, whose son is Jesus Christ, our saviour.” I interrupted her lamentations.
“We have totally different thoughts. 100% different. I’m a Buddhist and you’re a Christian.”
“Are you sure that you’re a Buddhist? Buddhists do not go to the temple and pray and burn incenses…” To cut things short, she was very adamant that since she had sought so many gods, there’s no reason to seek Jesus for help. She believes now that only she alone can help herself.
“How do you help yourself?” I was curious.
“Let them do whatever they want unto me. I won’t care.” She replied.
“But why? When there’s a way for you to cast them away from you, why can’t you give it a try?” I had talked to her about pastors casting out demons from people in churches and tried to coax her to visit a local church there. She was interested, but steadfast to her rule, “I’m a Buddhist.”

It was a very, very long talk. To the end I remembered my objective of calling her – to help her if she needed any, and not to bring up any argument. So I did not push her far. But I reminded her, “Try all ways you want. But if one day, you find that no one can help you, not even yourself, and you really badly needed help, call out to Jesus. Ask him to save you. And you’ll be safe. Trust me.”

Those were the same words many people had repeatedly told me few years ago, which had ultimately brought me to Jesus. And He saved me, indeed. Praise Lord. ;-)

Dai Yee Long

For the Chinese-speaking people, I’m sure they’ll understand the title of my article today. For those who don’t, the direct translation will be, “Big Ear Hole.” It implies something that will drill the hole in your ear bigger and bigger, until you lose your brain and head. Haha.. that’s my own understanding. Well, the actual meaning would be, loan shark. Or better known as, “Ah Long”.

The recent death of the 3 siblings murdered by their parents with bleach and kitchen gas surely has saddened the Malaysian folks. As usual, fingers started pointing everywhere, including the other family members and friends who didn’t lend a hand, government who didn’t put a stop to these loan sharks’ businesses and etc. A friend or family member may help you once, twice, thrice... but definitely you don’t expect them to clear your junks your entire life! You have to first look into the root of the problem. First stop creating junks.

My point here is, my dear friends, don’t point fingers at people when things do not turn out right. In the first place, one should never loan money from these people. They are not called SHARKS for no reason. Whatever problem you may face, DO NOT APPROACH THESE SHARKS.

Well, if you do not want to approach these people, dun think that the banks will supply you personal loans without checking your background first. Those with dirts and dusts in the financial history will be unlikely for any loan candidate. So, the core issue is, do not get into any kind of debt in the first place.

These are a few reasons why people run into debts.
Gambling habit. A fatal habit, which can actually drag the whole family into the fire of hell. Buying share without understanding the company’s nature is also a form of gamble.
Pleasure in using credit cards. While credit cards are definitely a necessity in today’s modern world, but always check your balance. And spend only what is necessary. Keep a habit of writing your personal spending accounts in order to keep track of what you’ve spent on. Many people, despite a zero credit, still dares to buy furniture, handphone and other accessories with no worry in their mind. Daring in this case could spell you trouble fren…

Bought cars and houses… without planning. Too many downpayments with too much of car loans.

Bought too many insurance. Having insurance is fine, good… but one do not need too many of them. Once you start to have problems in your current job, where will you get the money to pay up the thounsands of insurance bill? This applies especially for the young parents who started buying insurance for their children at infancy age. Halo?? Ultimately, either you run into debt, or your premium becomes void – which means you lose money also.

So to my friends out there, keep yourself clear of these four debt-inducing issues. =) All the best.