Goodbye doesnt mean forever

saying goodbye (esp to someone whom i cared for) has always been hard to do. regardless of who's the departing person - me or him/her. it had never been easy for me. And what could be worse? nvr even had the chance to bid goodbye.

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She had went all the way to the railway stn, just to bid goodbye. At the stn, her friend was no where at sight. She looked up at the giant clock. The minute hand struck 35. It was 2.35pm. 10 minutes before her friend's train departure. There should be enough time to get her a biscuit, then she can munch munch on the train. Quickly she rushed to a nearby grocery and picked a nicely packaged biscuit. This will be good. She smiled. Just then, she felt her mobile vibraint. She quickly fidgeted her bag. She looked at her mobile - Tassy..

"Hey i cant find you. i'm on the way to train now.. where r u?"
"Where's ur train?" She started running to the platforms. "Which is your train?" There were 4 similar trains lining side by side anticipating their passengers.
"Platform 5.. er.. car 2.. mmbrrrr.." The train ambience was deafening.
"Hello?"
"Brrmm..."
"I can't hear you.."
"Brrmm.." The line went dead.

She was standing at platform 5. the train had at least 12 couches. Which one? She urgently scanned through the passengers in each couch. Then her phone vibrated. Tassy.

"Tassy! which coach are you in?"
"2! brrr.. far.. brrrr..." The line went dead.

Tassy hurried out of her couch, hoping to catch a glimpse of Crystal. The couch captain who was standing at the doorstep gave an annoyed look and mumbled some Thai words which Tassy didn't bother to decipher. I know, u want me to get back in right? i know i know.. just a moment.. it won't hurt u no..

Crystal felt her phone vibrated again.

"Where r u? my train's moving soon.. brrrmm..."

At the very same time the train blew its horm and the captain rushed Tassy back into the train. All the doors closed at once. Inch by inch the train creaked into motion. Crystal quickly passed the biscuit to a couch captain, "Pass this to Tassy please," She gave a short description of Tassy and soon, the train was out of sight.

Tassy looked hard through the window. Crystal.. I'm sorry i had to leave without saying goodbye..

Tassy never received the biscuit.
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Tat's a vy simple example. Sometimes when someone i cared for bade goodbye, i pretended i didn't care, when in fact i hated so much to see him leave at all. I knew for sure that i was gonna miss him, bt if i ever let my feeling show, i knew, my world will be shrouded with sadness... well, at least temporarily. And that will affect my composure, which i didn't like, esp. in the public.

Nevertheless, i have learned now that, it will be wiser to show that you cared, that you'l mis him while u stil have the chance to do so. Even thought it's gonna cost me an ocean of tears, it's worth it. For i may never have the chance to so again.

After all.. good bye doesn't mean forever. ;)