The Keys.. Part 1

this is an excerpt from Asian Beacon, an article by Weng Hui Qing. I just find it worth while to share. =)

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I really loathed having keys. i had too many keys but was helpless about it. they were always a necessary evil. i needed a set for the house. one set because there was the French window, the metal grill lock and the outer gate. there was a second set for my work place; metal gate, front door, room and laboratory. i needed a third set for a ministry that i served; outer gate, metal grill lock, side door, wooden door and drawer. and then there was this set for the church premises. if i drove, i would need my car keys for ignition, gear box lock and steering wheel. if i rode my motorcycle, i needed a separate set. o, yes, they steal motorcycles too, either whole or in parts, so i had keys for ignition, rear box and wheel lock.

if i forgot any key at anytime, i had nobody to blame but myself. to be sure, i wasn't a forgetful person. it was just that being very busy, i was always in a hurry, and taking the wrong bunch of keys was a most likely occurrence. to make my life more efficient, the safest bet was to carry all my keys. fortunately i had many key chains that friends gave me after their return from overseas trips. so whenever i went out of my house, i would have two sets of keys in my left trouser pocket, another three sets in my right pocket, including the ones for my wheels. the trouble was that i had other things to carry as well.

these included my cell phone, my wallet and my sunglasses. these, together with my keys, coupled with the merciless force of gravity, always weighed down my trousers which i tried to keep in place on my 29-inch waist. The fact that all my trousers were size 30 did not help. i didn't know why all the sales promoters in town always encouraged me to buy trousers one size bigger. they said i would be fatter next year, but their prediction never came true. The result was that i developed the bad habit of pulling up my trousers every now and then.

... to be continued....

Gifts

I was unpacking and setting up, rearranging my stuffs back at home, and i came across many gifts... unused.. which included plush toys, key chains, aroma-candles, paintings, all kinds of souvenirs big and small which mainly served the purpose of "decoration".

It saddened me to see how these items went unused for the past years. Wouldn't it be much better, if they can be circulated around the world, touching someone's heart every now and then.. and that will increase the worth of the gift isn't it?! instead of keeping them in my little office.. it's just like keeping your money in your drawer when you can instead circulate them, which will increase the money's value isn't it... haiya...

Now i have a little request to my friends who's thinking of getting me any gift of any kind... well, you know tat i'm a realistic person.. if you decide not to give me cash.. :p so you can buy me any gift..

- such as the above-mentioned gifts, but chances are i'm going to circulate (give it to someone else to brighten their day) the gift in order to increase the gift's worth

- or u can get me something useful - such as nice clothes, special key chains or mugs like those with our face/name on or the one-in-a-million type, anything tat i can wear or use, books, pens, shoes, or better still - delicious stuff such as chocolates -yummy! :) chances are i'm going to keep them or eat them up. :p

- i like this best - your very own hand-made stuff - coz it's priceless! special cards, letters, sand bottles, stars etc. chances are i'm going to keep them forever, coz i treasure things made with sweat and blood. . im dracula in disguise.. you forgotten? :p

- the best gift you can give me - be by my side when i needed you most. haha... the hardest and most valuable gift of all...

- the best gift you can give to yourself? you don't know, but i know. ask me and i'll tell you the answer. :)

Thank you..

With boldness and without fear
I've walked into this foreign town
A town so small and full of strangers
Without any friend or relative
Yet I entered the town
Trusting God alone

God is good, indeed
He never fail his promises
He moulded my heart and mind through hardships
So I may hear Him speak
And he finishes his beautiful work in me with honey
So sweet I kept hungering for more of it
So sweet I have fallen in love with this foreign town

He has a plan for me
In everything i do, everywhere I go
He has a purpose installed for me
Though I may not know it
But I know that His plans are always good for me
He is gentle and kind, merciful and gracious
And I'm glad
So very glad that..

He is my Father. :-)

i'm leaving a beautiful place such as..

ktn... and never able to forget the beautiful people and kids i met during my 1 year journey in ktn... i'll miss and love them all... always. :) Praise God for introducing such beautiful church as GCC into my life.. my life was changed.. indeed. Thank God.

2 more days.. i'll be leaving Ktn back to KL. What am I going to face back in KL? So many questions, but they never bothered me. Coz my mind is now smothered with, "seize all moments you still have in Ktn!!!!" I know for sure that im gonna miss ktn and my church folks & kids, my landlady, my kiko, o-chui... friends... so much so im determined to spend everyday with a few of them... this and that...

Tonight i gonna spend with my landlady, she buying me dinner... then tomorrow is another day.. gonna have the final moon-watching episode in TC.. oh boy... when will be the next time i moon-watch with such beautiful brothers n sisters again?

God... i need your grace... flowing incesssantly... though your grace have always been sufficient for me.. but i hunger for more of you Lord.... give me strength and faith to face each new day as i prepare my heart to leave ktn n my beautiful bro n sis... keep me close to your heart, always Lord... love...

Dr Fatimah passed away

Another death.. my dear Large Animal Medicine lecturer passed away on saturday. She fell down in the bathroom and...

Lord bless her soul..

My cousin's death

Just 2 weeks ago, a friend of mine died suddenly in an accident. Last saturday, my cousin, Nicholas, 19 died suddenly due to stomach bleeding. It was too sudden. These sequence of events couldn't help but lead me to the fact that, anyone will die, anytime, anywhere. You won't know. I won't know. Young or old, they will die. Sick or healthy, they still die. One day you and i will die. When? No one knows.

If a loved one of yours die tomorrow, what is the most grappling thing in your heart? I would want to know, after death where is he going? is he prepared to go where he is going? i won't care whatever thing on earth that he's left unsettled, but i want to make sure that the road ahead of him is a good one. Will you want him to be in heaven or hell?

I have spoken to a few people, everyone cling to the principle, "just enjoy your life on earth." But dear friends, are you aware that there is life after death? Do you know that heaven and hell do exist? ( don't ask me where it is, coz i'm still alive ok. if you really want to know, ask the one true living God)

There is only one way to be sure of where he'll go after death - have he received Jesus in his life yet?

Jesus has said, " I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6.

The bible says, "Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved." ~Romans 10:6.

While we are still alive, we have the chance to repent and receive Jesus, do it. Tell your loved ones to do so also. For we won't know when our time will come. So that when the day comes, you're assured & comforted that one day you'll see him again in heaven, that's for sure. Amen.

It's through.. . finally.

Praise God! My boss is finally back! It was such a relief. I truly thank God for by his grace I survived the past 6 weeks.

It is indeed true, that when you’re in your comfort zone, very often you lax and forget about God and all his blessings unto you. It is in times of trouble and distress that you seek God most, and you will thus know Him better and thus build an even stronger relationship with Him. When His grace touches you, miracles happen, all the impossibles become possible, the “unthinkables” becomes reality.

The past 6 weeks were truly difficult to me, for I had to do surgeries which I have never done before, and all difficult cases I had to diagnose and manage it on my own.. There were times when I reached home late at night, past mid night, just to settle the cases. Even after reaching home, I would be worrying about the animals and having nightmares about them. There was literally no peace at all.

So many times I broke down and thought of just quit working immediately and run away from Ktn. But that was a wrong spirit. I must thank God, for every time I was so weak that I cried like a child & started questioning and pleading God this and that, I started hearing songs in my ears. It was almost like God was comforting me with words like, “Be still and know that I am God”, “Let the peace of God reign”, “Let the weak say I am strong… it’s what the Lord has done in me”, “God will make a way… hold me closely to his side”.

I was comforted instantaneously, trusting that God is in control of everything, and if he brings me to it, He will surely bring me through it. I cast all my worries to Him. And now I live to tell you that He had indeed brought me through it! Glory to God, hallelujah!

Dear Father in heaven, I thank you that you are my Father. You’re so merciful, full of love and grace… how can I ever thank and love you enough? Take me deeper in love with you, that I may know you even more. Oh, and how I long to hear your voice Lord, in Jesus’ name, Amen.

A friend's death

A friend of mine died 2 days ago, in a car accident in New Zealand, where she and 3 of her friends plunged into a lake. It was winter. When I heard of the news I was shocked. She’s only 20. She had just got her scholarship to study in NZ months ago. And now…

The wise men say, it is not how long you lived that matters, but how meaningful your life was. Isn’t it true? I thank God for giving us Veronica, although it was only for a short period of time, she has been a source of inspiration, joy, & hope to many of us. We love her. As we soothe our hearts with tears, we know that Jesus is weeping with us. He is with us, Emmanuel.

But we also trust that God has His divine purpose in everything, though we may not understand, though we may not rationalize it. For God has said, “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future.”

So now I ask that Father, speak to us. Open our ears so we may hear you. Let us hear you Lord. I thank you for Veronica has believed in Jesus, and she is saved. Thank you for bringing Veronica home with you in heaven. Thank you God, for you are our stronghold, our rock, our comfort, our shelter. Strengthen us, give us courage, increase our faith Lord, so we may face the days to come faithfully, walking with Jesus.
In Jesus’ name I pray, AMEN.

“If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.”

God is good, always. AMEN!

testing me?

my bos is away overseas for a month - and i'm absolutely busy here. Busy is ok, working more hours without appreciation... all the due stresses and pressure without anyone understanding... I wished to give up several times... but i know that that's not the way. but there is still one more month to go.. how do i live on/go on?

Dear father in heaven, in times when i am weak, i thank you for being there with me. In times when i crumble into pieces, thank you for fixing them into one piece again and enable me to walk on again the next day. God i ask this of you, come what may be, but let it be as you will dear Lord, and i that you always be with me, encourage me, give me strength, strengthen my faith as i am feeble, weak... and help me Lord. Carry me when i fell flat on the ground and didn't want to get up. Forgive me for my weakness Lord. In times when I walk on difficult paths of life, Lord I ask that you grant me wisdom and your divine understanding, so that I will make the right decision which pleases you Lord. God i thank you, thank you for your ever abundant love and mercy. Bless you lord and love you...

In Jesus' name i pray, amen.

Believe it or not?

Last Saturday I attended a Healing Rally session, in Subang, led by Pastor William Lau, the founder of Elijah Challenge. Healing Rally simply means a group of people coming together to be healed by God, the true and living God; the one God whom have created the heaven and earth, and sent His son Jesus to die for our sins.

I have read and watched videos of such healing rallies held overseas, where miracles happened – the lame walks, the blind sees, and the deaf hears! Cancer patients were healed. I was really excited that Saturday.

That night, more than a thousand people turned up, both Christians and non-Christians, sick and healthy, men and women, young and old. After a little preaching, we prayed to God our Father in heaven to manifest His miracles and heal the sick/needy people present amongst us that night, in Jesus’ name.

“This is the moment,” I thought nervously. So we started rebuking diseases and illness in Jesus’ name. Then Pastor William asked the thousand audiences, “Who are healed?” Silence. Gradually, one hand after another started protruding from the sea of people. Pastor William then asked them to stand up and move on to the stage to testify their healing.

I couldn’t believe my eyes and ears! More than 150+ received healing that night! A few people who were once deaf could hear clearly, some started hearing clearly without hearing aids, some with lumps (suspected cancer) where the lumps just disappear or soften that night, some with numb hand can actually move their hands, those with years of back pain, knee pain, arthritis were healed, and a boy whom initially walks with a cane was actually walking around without a cane, free! People with stress/emotional depression felt something was lifted away from them and were relieved that night.

I stood there in awe. God was indeed present amongst us that night.

Then came the altar call – who wants to accept Jesus Christ as their personal Saviour? Hands went up, and people started stepping out. I honestly (& embarrassingly) never expected so much healing and people accepting Christ that night. Tears started filling up my eyes.

Dear heavenly Father, forgive my doubtful heart and my small faith in you, increase my faith, Lord. Thank you for confirming your words. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

“And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will …….they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.” ~Mark 16:17.

Surgery miracle

Being a final year vet student, besides completing and presenting project, assignments, rounds & conferences, I had to practice my surgical skills on dogs weekly, which was done in a team-manner. There were 4 people in my team. Each week, everyone rotates to be the “Surgeon”. “Surgeon” in this context means the head of the team for that particular surgery, and he must know everything about the surgery. If he doesn’t, he’ll “kena hantam kuat-kuat” from someone big in the surgery theatre. And it does hurt, sometimes deeply, if you “kena hantam” from those “someone big”.

So it happened that one particular week, I had to present clinical rounds on Tuesday, on Monday & Wednesday I had to complete my project to pass up asap, Friday was my clinical conference and on Thursday, I was scheduled to be the “Surgeon”. It was a week filled with stress & tension. Let alone the project, presenting clinical rounds & conferences required me to do tones of homework & researches so that when the audience throw questions at me, I’ll be able to give them an appropriate answer. Time was just not enough, no matter how I squeezed my sleeping hours. Mon, Tue, Wed passed so quickly & I found myself frozen on Wed night. Panicked.

“Tomorrow I’ll be the surgeon. I’ll have to spend tonight, and tomorrow’s morning to read about the surgery, and spend the rest of tomorrow doing surgery. And my conference presentation was not even ready!” The conference was akin to a test for us. On the brink of tears, I thought of Jesus. I thought of how the church members had boasted of miracles and glorified Jesus’ name. But rationally, there was no way of canceling the surgery class, and no way to postpone my conference presentation, coz they involved too many people. And it was such last-minute.

Silently I thought, “Even if I prayed to Jesus,” (I was not yet a believer) “there is no way how he can help me. I just couldn’t see a way out.” Tears started dripping down my cheeks. “But it would be good if only my surgery class is cancelled tomorrow.” I sighed and shook my head, “Silly thought. It’s impossible.” I told Davies abt my thought and we knew that it was just impossible.

Early next morning, we prepared the books & everything necessary for surgery class. As usual, the lecturer talked a little about the imminent surgery. I froze. I looked around me. All tables, towels, equipments & instruments have been sterilized & well-laid, awaiting for the surgery to start. I sighed. Tension. As the lecturer left, suddenly our “Head of Nurse” came into the class. “Later 2pm you are supposed to come in and do surgery.” She smiled. “But there is no dog for surgery today.” She paused. “So surgery is cancelled.”

I jumped on my feet and almost screamed out loud excitedly. I told my friends (who were all bewildered with the news) abt my thoughts yesterday. But who would believe me? Instilled in each of us was the thought that surgery class will never, ever be cancelled, even if the lecturer does not turn up. So who would be stupid enough to ever think of the thought? Then Davies came to me excitedly, “Wei, your prayer really come true!” I smiled. Glad. Happy. “I did not pray. I just thought,” I thought smilingly. “I just thought of Jesus.”

Then a voice said to me, “Everything is possible in Jesus.” Later on, I found a few similar verses in the Holy Bible…

‘Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” ~Matthew 19:26

‘Jesus replied, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.” ~Luke 18:27.

‘Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.” ~Mark 10:27

My project miracle

Within the next few weeks, miracles happened after miracles... it was the time around the DVM4 semester break and early DVM5 semester, where we were loaded with project, clinical conferences and clinical rounds, presentations.. small animal rounds.. it was just fully loaded (our timetable). Let me just share a few miracles which i could still remember...

I was doing a project on how certain microorganism (copepods) can kill Aedes larvae. So one part of my project was to breed Aedes larvae. We were given 5 weeks to finish the entire project, which means i had only 2 weeks to breed my larvae (with 4 stages of life, with each stage taking about 3-5 days before moving on to the next stage).

So I started filling up jars and aquariums with waters with hope of Aedes mosquitoes laying eggs there. However, towards the end of the 2 weeks, I still did not have enough Aedes larvae. I started to panic, and I remembered during my few visits to my dad's church, they kept emphasizing, "When you're in fear/trouble, just call out Jesus to help you."

I was a Buddhist/Taoist then, but my circumstances forced me to source out all help available. Friends and lecturers couldn't help me to breed enough larvae. And one night, at the end of my wits, I decided to try praying to Jesus, asking for His help. Early next morning, I rushed to my lab and checked out my aquariums. Praise God! My prayer was answered. There were plenty of Aedes larvae of all stages in all my aquariums, enough to proceed with my project.

I was really amazed. I tried reasoning first. If the mosquitoes started laying eggs yesterday, i would have only stage 1 larvae. Where did stage 2, 3, and 4 larvae came from? It would have taken them at least 10 days to grow in my aquarium, and it was impossible that i have missed them for the past 10 days (because I was desperately looking for larvae everywhere possible for hours, even a stage 1 larva would not escape from my eagle eyes).

I started thinking, was it really Jesus?

My first road accident

Talking about water baptism, it is one way of showing to the world that you have decided to follow Christ as the lord of your life, and thus follow His commandments. Superficially, it’s just soaking into water. But there is in fact, a lot of meaning behind it.

Prior to baptism, I was required to give a testimony in front of the church congregation – telling them, what brought you to Christ. Wow, I really had a big headache thinking of what to say. The problem was not that I do not have anything to say. The problem was, I had too much to say and I was given only a few minutes.

So I finally decided to talk about my miraculous accident, back in nov 2004. I was in DVM4 then. That Friday, during lunch break, I decided to go back to my hostel (K12, which was about 3-5km away). The fastest way would be to ride pillion on my friend’s motorcycle. So I borrowed a helmet from FSuen, and in my hurry, accidentally took WChat’s (1st miracle), which was a very heavy, full-head, high quality one. Fsuen’s was the olden day’s type – those that covers only half your cranium with no visor.

As I reached K12, I kept complaining about the helmet, for it was really heavy on my little head. I didn’t realize that I have taken the wrong helmet. My friend and I lingered and relaxed around in hostel, until 1 minute before class starts. As expected, we hurriedly hopped onto the bike. She rides, me pillion. We were seriously (& scarily) speeding on the right lane towards faculty, when suddenly a motorcycle emerged from behind and crashed us. Both bike riders lost control, and my bike suddenly gained a powerful momentum; my friend and I were overthrown as the bike skewed.

There was no time for me to shout/ scream. One moment I was flying in the air head-on (like superman). The next moment I was bumping (like a ball) onto my friend (who has already landed, but I was still bumping and flying over her). After a few bumps on the ground I finally landed. I laid there, still. Eyes closed. My whole body was trembling, shaking. As I opened my eyes, I was horrified to find a big wall only a few cm away from me! (2nd miracle) A difference by the few cm could have had my head crushed against the wall. I was flung about 10m away from the crash site.

I sat up, looked around me and felt the ground. Instead of landing into the middle of the road, I was actually swung to the roadside, “flied” over the road, and bumped onto grasslands! (3rd miracle) It so happened that I was also wearing a jacket and jeans, which were partly torn during the accident, but apart from a few bruises, I was unharmed! (4th miracle) As I removed my helmet which protected my head in the accident, I suddenly recalled that this was the helmet which I had been complaining about. My entire cranium was fine, there was not even a scratch on my face (I bumped and landed face-down).

Suddenly it became clear to me that a divine power was protecting me… setting so many miracles before me only to save me from an accident which I had never anticipated… (To be continued)

water baptism

a short update - i was water-baptized on easter day. ;)

God bless...

Passover

This is the passover week. I’ve never heard of “Passover” week before this. So don't bother asking me whether i know what it's about. But now, I know.

It started from the time of Moses, when God had wanted to save the Israelites, who were then slaves under Egypt’s reign. That particular day (called Passover Day), the Israelites were commanded to eat lambs as to celebrate a festival to the Lord. The blood from the lamb should be put onto the sides and tops of the doorframes of the houses where they eat the lambs. That same night, God will strike (punish) Egypt. All firstborns, both men and animals shall die. But He will “pass over” the houses with the lamb blood on the doorframes, and leave the men and animals within unharmed. That night, the first child of the Pharaoh died.

Ever since then, the Jews celebrate this festival every year, sacrificing lambs on that day. Years later, Jesus the Messiah came down to Earth from Heaven, fulfilling the prophecies in the Scripture. On the journey to His crucifixion, He was mocked, tortured, tormented, whipped, spat on, pierced on the head, and finally crucified on the cross. How He had suffered! Jesus died on the day of Passover.

He was actually the Passover lamb, who had been sacrificed to free and purify our sins by His blood to bring us to God. Jesus died, was buried and resurrected on the third day.

Dear Jesus, how I thank you this day for being willing to endure the agony and suffering for my sins. Thank you for making me a child of God. In your name, Amen.

wat's the priority in your life?

I remember going back to hometown visiting my relatives n frens during chinese new year abt a month ago, i met one and greeted her as usual, "Happy New Year."

Her reply was reali one of a rare kind. Guess. 95% of the ppl i greeted would have replied saying, "Happy New Year" or "Gong Xi Fa Cai" or all those 4-letter chinese words with profound meanings... so have you managed to make a guess? Her reply was...

"No! You must wish me, stock market go up up up!" I was shocked. coz the norm was, i greet them, then they greet back the same thing, and we move on to greet other ppl. And this was out of the norm. Ei?

So i replied.."No... happiness comes first, money later..."
And she said, "No no no, must always come first."

Folks, if you could recall, days before the CNY were exactly the few days when our stock market was at their peak, expectedly, it was the moment where you see ppl rushing into KLSE/ stock market. Days after the CNY, the market plummeted, badly, reali badly. When i heard the news, the first person that came into my mind was that fren of mine.

If you put money as the first priority in your life, i assure you, you have put your life pursuing the wrong thing. No doubt, we need money in life. It's important. But that does not mean it should be the MAIN PRIORITY in your life.

There are so many things that we, imperfect humans need in life.. and so many people do not seem to be ever satisfied with what they have or what they have achieved. I remember an ad in the tv started with the model askin this sentence, "Have you ever wake up in the morning saying your want less in life?"And that explains human nature just right - we are always looking for more... MORE... and another brand's slogan, "I want more!" more MORE...

2 days ago someone asked me,"Why don't you gamble?" Another person replied on my behalf,"No need to gamble, as long as you get married to a rich guy, stay at home jaga anak, play with pets enough liao." Is that true?

To me, (and I hope the same goes to you too) the main priority in life should always be God. Always seek him, in every circumstance. Money is important. So are health, love, boyfriends, girlfriends, parents, family, children, education, career, cars, houses, food... No doubt, they are very very important. But the focus of our lives should always be directed to God. What is the use of good wealth and health and friends when you live in fear/war? We need peace and joy ultimately. And that alone comes from God's grace.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." ~Psalm 23:4.

"For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock." ~Psalm 27:5.

Surely there wil be a day when our health will fall, people walk out on us, career fail, and all things just turn out wrong. But you know what? There's one that will never walk out on you, he's Emmanuel, Jesus Christ, our Saviour.

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you from captivity." ~Jeremiah 29:11.

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." ~Hebrews 13:5

When Jesus dwells within you, peace and joy will come to you automatically. God bless.

My big sis wedding

it had been such a long time since i last posted my blog, tat so many things have happened, yet i wanted to post just one topic... I have sat in the bathroom mentally planning every single words for my blog, and the moment i steppet out - dong.. all of it just vanished. so things are reali turning n churnin in my head now... hmm...

anyway, big things come first. My big sis is wedded.
My feelings? It's like something tat just happens in your life.. first it suprises you, then wonders you, makes you think, excites you, thrills you and hey, its over! Then you wake up in the morning as usual, peep at the empty bed, you rub your eyes once, twice, then shake your head a little bit here n thr.. and the realization finally sets in. Big sis is wedded. Honestly n regretfully, i didn't help much, excuse? i was in ktn.. bad excuse i know but.. distance does play a role k..

So my current feeling? Not much, but relying to God 100%. I pray tat God will bless her, abundantly, always, bless her new family and always be with them, in everything, under everycircumstances, whether in wealth or poverty, whether in comfort or adversity, emmanuel.. In Jesus' name I trust, Amen.

And I really fell in love with this song - we sang it during her wedding ceremony. The lyric goes..

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone...

they're all grown-ups now!

i went back hometown yesterday visited my aunties and uncles and also my cousins, got some ang pows and chatted... but the part that really got me crazy was...

in believing my eyes - my little little cutie cousin brothers n sisters are now grown-ups! even taller than mE!!! i still remembered how I carried them, hugged them as a baby, hushed and played silly games with them.. and now they're... taller than me! std 6.. 13... 15 years olD! i can't belive this?!

and i stil think tat i'm 17?! hallo? the thing is that the memories i had when I was in my teen years was stamped so deeply in me, tat my memories have always been clinging to those years'.

haih... after seeing and talked them i still couldn't believe it, so i pinched their cheeks.. and it was real.

it was real.

How to spend your energy?

Today is another day with an irritating client. This time a “guai lou”. Great.

To start things off, she looked down on me. I don’t mind if she can’t carry a smile on her face or she can’t speak kind English. What tugged my nerve was, she thought I didn’t understand English! Great. She thought she speaks good Malay anyway, so she automatically switched her language mode to Bahasa Melayu baku – lambat. It was so slow, it irritated me the 2nd time. I told her, “You can speak to me in English, I understand English. I just couldn’t catch your accent.”

“Very well,” (she thought). So she proceeded with her wonderful English, and I couldn’t pick up certain words. Instead of kindly repeat the word for me, she went slapping her forehead – implicating to me, “Why do you say you understand English when you don’t?!” And stamped her feet a little, and I could read from her body language, “Waste my time speaking to you in a language which you don’t understand.” Automatically she switched back to her Bahasa-Melayu-baku-yang-lambat. Fine. And I was, "Great, where did you learn that manners from?"

She’s irritated. So was I. The difference was, she’s “legally” allowed to show it, but I can’t. What to do? I just flashed my charming stunning smile at her. Kekeke… Let’s play princess charming.

Getting irrited with such ppl does spoil the day, but not entirely. Later a puppy was rushed in – suffocated in a plastic bag! Oh my… we tried resuscitating the poor pup, but to no avail. Guess it was too long suffocated before found. Sad.

Now when I think back of my today, hmm.. might as well spend my energy doing something beneficial, or feeling sorry for the pup, rather than thinking back of the irritants.

So folks, something to learn today. To cat/dog/baby owners, NEVER never NEVER feed your loved ones from a plastic bag. When you leave them with it, they may just accidentally wrap their head inside the plastic, get panic, struggle, and get suffocated in it. How unfortunate. Pour the things out into a proper bowl, and THROW AWAY the plastic bag to some place where they have no access.

So let’s BEWARE… and TAKE PRECAUTIONS. Better safe than sorry.

Frust!

This type of owneR! They're really irritating, frustratin! haar!!!!

1st. They ask every single thing you do. For example, i charge hospitalization rate for RM xx. ok, so they ask all sorts of questions - what do you do during hospitalization of the cat? how many times you take body temperature? What type of medication doyou give? what for? How often? What type of injection do you give? How many ml of fluid do you give my cat every hour? What's in the fluid? what time will the fluid finish?

"HELLO!!!!!!" ahem.. that's my heart screaming at my cool brain.

then they'll add, "if hospitalize my cat here guarantee heal one. If not heal how?" I told them no guarantee.. "then why hospitalize my cat?"

"HELLO!!!!!" Can u pls speak some common sense? if hospitalization guarantees healing, NO HUMAN will ever die in a hospital!

then they added, "ok, this drug.. how much you charge? this injection, why necessary? how much you charge? if inject twice then how much?" I gave them an approximate round figure which includes everything, but he wanted to break down into every single item.

"HELLO!!!!" Do you know that if i break down everything for you you're gonna pay thru your nose??? A round up figure is a discounted price! I wished I could glare at them right at the eyes.

then they added, "you know, if i go to this vet, he'll just do ABC, no ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUV bla bla bla.." Coolly i tried my best to reply, "I don't know what tat vet gave, did he got better?" "Yah! within days!" "good, did the cat had the same symptoms as he had now?" "No..."

"SOOOOOOO????!!!!" anyway, if tat vet's so good, why come here?

ARRRGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! geram, geram , geram geram!!!!!!!!!

and now ended up with this high level of stress within me.. what if the cat didn't get better? What will they come up with? to make things worse, it's not easy to give the cat medication. Haih.... stress...

God.. grant me peace & wisdom please... Amen.